Sometimes "Someday" Comes Too Late

Fair warning: Today's blog post is a little selfish. It's not really about my new book. It's about the man who unknowingly gave it its name—and how I waited far too long to tell him.

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Recently, my newest novel, The Peoplehunters, was released on my birthday. As birthday

presents go, that's pretty hard to beat.

And yes, before anyone emails me, I know Peoplehunters isn't technically a word.

It is now.

It's my book. I paid for the cover. I get to make up the rules.

The funny thing is that the title is much older than the book itself.

Decades ago, I managed a private detective agency owned by the father of Michael, my first real love. Jerry offered me the job when I desperately needed one, and it became one of the most fascinating chapters of my life. We had surveillance agents, polygraph examiners, investigators, skip tracers, and enough colorful personalities to keep a television series running for years.

To everyone's surprise—including mine—I became the only woman regularly sent out on

investigative cases. Looking back, I probably should have asked more questions. Instead, I grabbed my notepad, climbed into the car, and figured, what could possibly go

wrong? Fortunately, I lived to tell about it.

One afternoon, Jerry's son, Jeff, and I were talking about our work. I asked him what he loved most about being an investigator.

Without hesitation, he grinned and said, "You know I've always loved to fish and hunt. Now I hunt people."

I laughed so hard I almost fell off my chair.

"That," I said, "is the coolest book title I've ever heard! Someday I'm going to write a book about this place and call it The Peoplehunters."

We laughed about some of the strangest cases we'd ever worked and the unforgettable characters we'd met along the way. I silently promised myself that one day I'd write those stories.

Then life happened.

As it usually does.

Work. Family. Bills. Responsibilities. One year became five. Five became ten. Before I knew it, decades had slipped by.

Then, one morning not too long ago, I woke up at four o'clock with those detective stories marching through my head as if they'd been waiting patiently all these years.

I made a pot of tea, sat down at my computer, and started writing.

The words flowed so easily that what I thought would be one book became three.

When my publisher informed me that The Peoplehunters had finally been released, I knew exactly who I wanted to tell first.

Jeff.

I reached out to his mother, excitedly telling her I wanted to send one copy to her and another to Jeff.

There was a pause.

Then she quietly messaged me that he had died.

I knew Jeff had battled cancer a few years ago, but I truly believed he had beaten it. I thought she had told me he was okay. I guess I misunderstood.

My excitement vanished in an instant.

The hardest part wasn't simply learning he was gone.

It was realizing I'd never get the chance to tell him that he had inspired me. I never got to hand him the book and say, "Remember that conversation we had all those years ago? I finally kept my promise."

He probably never gave that conversation another thought.

I never stopped thinking about it.

Funny how life works.

Sometimes the smallest comment, made in passing, changes someone else's life forever. And the person who inspired it may never even know.

It made me wonder how many lives we've each touched without realizing it. A teacher who offered encouragement. A friend who believed in us when we didn't believe in ourselves. A co-worker who opened a door. A parent who sacrificed more than we ever understood. A stranger who said exactly what we needed to hear on exactly the right day.

Most of us will never know the full impact we've had on another person's life.

For the past few weeks I've carried a quiet sadness. Not the overwhelming grief that brings life to a standstill, but the tender ache that comes from an unfinished conversation.

Over the years, grief has taught me many lessons.

One of the most important is this: we don't just grieve the people we've lost.

Sometimes we grieve the words we never spoke.

The thank-you we never expressed.

The appreciation we assumed there would always be time to share.

So, if this blog post accomplishes anything beyond helping me heal a little, I hope it's this:

Don't wait.

Tell people they matter.

Tell them they inspired you.

Tell them they made a difference.

Don't assume they'll always be around to hear it.

Because sometimes "someday" quietly slips away...and someday comes too late.

I believe Jeff is at peace. I like to imagine he was welcomed by his dad, Jerry, and his brother, Michael, with hugs, laughter, and maybe a few detective stories that only they could appreciate.

Perhaps, somewhere beyond what we can see, Jeff now knows that one sentence he casually spoke decades ago—"Now I hunt people."—became the title of a novel and inspired an entire series.

I only wish I could have handed him that very first copy.

Rest in peace, Jeffrey.

Thank you for the title idea.

Thank you for the inspiration.

And thank you for reminding me—one last time—not to wait until someday.

I hope you know now.